I think I failed maths test today.... It was only 1 question. So everybody thought it was easy. Don't judge a book by its cover. Everybody had different answers. We even had a small scale Chinese test, which I most likely failed. Failure!

I know it's a short post today, but other than being pissed off at my Chinese teacher for being so over pro in giving questions that would surely cause you your marks, there wasn't much.... Just bored...

How would you feel?

How would you feel? If your classmate gives you a murderous look every time you walk past. If he or she ignores when you try to start a conversation with her. But here's the thing, you do not know what you did wrong!

Why? I really want to know. If I did something to offend you that badly, I am really sorry! I did not know! You are really making my life miserable! It really isnt fair for me!

So look here! All 4 of you/ If I have, in anyway pissed you off, sorry. Because of you, my life has been made hell. Nobody likes to be hated. I'm sure you don't either. You might be gloating behind the computer, I wouldnt know. But what I do know is that, for all your hatred to me, I dont hate you. Because I believe that it is not your fault. Sometimes, people judge others by the looks and I'm definitely not a pretty girl.

Stilll, I hold a hope within. For there to be shadow, there must be light. Can we leave hatred behind and make friends?

It's Monday.... How sucky can life get? I really hate going to school. It's like some sort of chore. We had P.E. today, I was really half dead trying hard to complete my 5 rounds. I practically dragged myself around! Torturous. That's a nice way to put it. School... Argh!

Of course we must go one step at a time (Jordan Sparks!). I must be patient! I will live through this!

Back to reality, that's totally impossible. Sometimes I feel like I'm being constricted, castaway from the world. I'm trying to crawl my way in, but I get kicked out even further each time. Life is my struggle, flipping around like a large fish on the docks, the fisherman comes holding a parang! There goes my life...

Anyway, what was I talking about? School! Yar, correct. I am getting so frustrated! Just tmr, there's gonna be a chinese test! I hate it!!! My chinese is like crap! My worst subject! I'm gonna fail. (And I call Stephanie a worrier... I'm even worse!)

Anybody watches Shugo Chara? I'm just like Amu, with an outside character. I find difficult to convey my feelings. How do I say this? On a daily basis, my mind feels like a mess of emotions, very chaotic, everything is jumbled up. Half the time, I'm not sure if I happy or sad, angry or dissappointed. Have I lost my mind?

People in class call me a pessimist, a crazy b**** or a sadistic psychopath. Pick your preference or make new ones, you are the boss. As long as you dont tell me I'm fine. I really hate it when people ignore me or treat me like I'm some sort of weirdo.

Two girls in class (at least) hate me and the worst thing is: I dont even know why! Well done girl! gg! So there you have it, I can sum up the entire of my ranting in 1 sentence.

I am a total failure!!!

I can do nothing! Cant make friends, cant study, cant draw, cant sing, cant paint, cant run, cant play ball, cant smile properly, cant talk properly, cant get out of fix, cant communicate with friends, cant help people, cant even help myself or save my own pathetic skin!!!!

So tell me! What the hell was I born for? Life sucks, I think I was born for the sake of mental torture...

Dont worry, I'm not intending to commit suicide anytime soon.

Hi

This is Eileen here! First time talking to you. Please to meet you. I am a busy girl, so I probably wont post too much. But, if I can, I'll post some of my school work and let you laugh at how pathetic I am. I'm quite open in the sense that I don't mind people knowing my marks as long as they don't flame me or laugh at me.
It's my first blog so, it will take some time for me to change my blogskin and all that. But, I'll warn you first, I can emo a lot, crap a lot, talk a lot and most important blur a lot. Anyway I hope you enjoy your stay in the palace of moonlight. If you're "lucky", I'll write one a month! I hope you tag when my tag block is up! That's all for now...