It's Monday.... How sucky can life get? I really hate going to school. It's like some sort of chore. We had P.E. today, I was really half dead trying hard to complete my 5 rounds. I practically dragged myself around! Torturous. That's a nice way to put it. School... Argh!

Of course we must go one step at a time (Jordan Sparks!). I must be patient! I will live through this!

Back to reality, that's totally impossible. Sometimes I feel like I'm being constricted, castaway from the world. I'm trying to crawl my way in, but I get kicked out even further each time. Life is my struggle, flipping around like a large fish on the docks, the fisherman comes holding a parang! There goes my life...

Anyway, what was I talking about? School! Yar, correct. I am getting so frustrated! Just tmr, there's gonna be a chinese test! I hate it!!! My chinese is like crap! My worst subject! I'm gonna fail. (And I call Stephanie a worrier... I'm even worse!)

Anybody watches Shugo Chara? I'm just like Amu, with an outside character. I find difficult to convey my feelings. How do I say this? On a daily basis, my mind feels like a mess of emotions, very chaotic, everything is jumbled up. Half the time, I'm not sure if I happy or sad, angry or dissappointed. Have I lost my mind?

People in class call me a pessimist, a crazy b**** or a sadistic psychopath. Pick your preference or make new ones, you are the boss. As long as you dont tell me I'm fine. I really hate it when people ignore me or treat me like I'm some sort of weirdo.

Two girls in class (at least) hate me and the worst thing is: I dont even know why! Well done girl! gg! So there you have it, I can sum up the entire of my ranting in 1 sentence.

I am a total failure!!!

I can do nothing! Cant make friends, cant study, cant draw, cant sing, cant paint, cant run, cant play ball, cant smile properly, cant talk properly, cant get out of fix, cant communicate with friends, cant help people, cant even help myself or save my own pathetic skin!!!!

So tell me! What the hell was I born for? Life sucks, I think I was born for the sake of mental torture...

Dont worry, I'm not intending to commit suicide anytime soon.